I’m terrified of everything. I lack self confidence, and I tend to shy away from opportunity because I think I’m not good enough

I know what I like and don’t like, but when I fail at something I hate, I feel no regrets. But putting myself out there for something I enjoy is different. In my opinion, life is short, and you’re wasting time if you aren’t pursuing something you love. But if you want to pursue something you love AND make a profit of it, then you simply have to expose yourself to the judgement and criticism of others, which has me scared shitless. 

I’m constantly worried that if I try to do something I will fail miserably. I turn down freelance job offers because I think I will disappoint the client. I try to record covers, but after dozens of takes often don’t post anything at all because I’m never satisfied with my voice. I avoid arguing my opinions via social media because I worry that my family members and friends will think less of me. Really, I’m terrible at opening up and making myself vulnerable, but that’s the only way I’m going to see any growth, so I need to fix it. If I’m going to try to be happy in whatever path I pursue, I need to try some goddamn trial and error. If I want to make myself happy, I need to jump off some metaphorical cliffs and just hope I don’t land in the shallows. 

and it makes it difficult to play guitar.